Ok...I'm Catholic, raised to believe that God doesn't put anything in front of you that you can't handle....I believe that if you pray for help, He will help. I just simply believe that Jesus and God and our Mother Mary were all there to help us when we need it. So..I need the help, I've fallen to my knees and begged for help. For a couple of days I felt like they were helping me,,,but now I'm feeling worse then when I asked for help. I've lost someone I loved dearly, and the pain is more than I can handle, I don't mean a death, because I know my loved ones go to heaven and are happy. I had to let the love of my life go, and it destroying me. I begged God, and Jesus to help me, to null the pain just a bit so I can function....and for a few days it seemed better, and I thanked God everyday for helping....I just don't know where to turn,,,,I pray, and I pray, and I beg, ... I've had to deal with alot in my life, an abusive husband, depression, what else can i do?